Week 4 Results
Original Weight: 368
Week one: 349
Week two: 351
Week three: 353.5
Week four: 349!
Wahoo! FINALLY! I have to admit I was getting frustrated! This week I really focused on not weighing myself and I think that was a big key. I also did better at exercising than before and upped the protein intake!
GOALS:
1. Be at 345 by next Monday.
2. Keep the protein uptake up.
3. Never forget to take the pills even once this week.
4. Keep drinking tons of water.
5. Exercise 4-5 times this week
Monday, November 17, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
MORNING MOTIVATION:
Tummy has felt good all day! Almost partook in office chocolate, but reminded myself I wasn’t hungry and really didn’t need it.
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 3 eggs, protein shake
Snack: soy nuts
L: pork salad
Snack: orange
D: chicken, mixed veggies
Snack: 100 cal fudgecicle
WORKOUT:
None today
RECAP:
I’m doing really good. It was a great day. I think that is the key. It actually isn’t that hard. Don’t think about it too much. Just eat less and move more. And keep on keeping on. (Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming) Nobody every died eating too healthy.
Tummy has felt good all day! Almost partook in office chocolate, but reminded myself I wasn’t hungry and really didn’t need it.
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 3 eggs, protein shake
Snack: soy nuts
L: pork salad
Snack: orange
D: chicken, mixed veggies
Snack: 100 cal fudgecicle
WORKOUT:
None today
RECAP:
I’m doing really good. It was a great day. I think that is the key. It actually isn’t that hard. Don’t think about it too much. Just eat less and move more. And keep on keeping on. (Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming) Nobody every died eating too healthy.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
MORNING MOTIVATION:
I can do it!!!! I need to think of my future babies and how I want to ride a bike with them and take them to Disneyland!!!
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 4 eggs (2 whole, 2 egg whites)
Snack: orange, protein snack
L: tuna salad
Snack: orange, soy nuts (They are actually quite good-smoky bbq flavor)
D: chicken, mixed veggies
Snack: 100 cal fudgecicle
WORKOUT:
45 Min elliptical J
RECAP:
This morning had a little nausea, wondered if it was because I didn’t have my protein shake. It seems like every time I don’t have it, I don’t feel so well. Very strange. But perhaps I still have the bug a little.
In the afternoon before lunch started feeling sick again. Rah, I wish this bug would just go away. Not entirely convinced either way if it’s the pill or a bug. I would think if it were the pills I would’ve noticed sooner.
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! So I just got back from the gym. And I have to say I’m really proud of myself. Yeah, big deal you went to the gym. I’ve gone to the gym hundreds of times. But today I didn’t go because I thought I should or because I didn’t want to disappoint Adam, but because I WANTED to.
I walk in and see Heather training Adam. I’m just so proud of him. I can’t be jealous. I simply can’t. He has applied himself and has never given up. I was just so proud of him! He has so earned it and deserves this. He has lost 60 pounds! He is under 200 pounds and so close to his ideal weight. That is just amazing. I admit in the past I’ve thought its just easier for him and he had less to lose. Excuse after excuse. I compared myself and would get discouraged. I feel like all of that is gone and I’m just happy for him and I’m willing to be as dedicated as him and no more making excuses. No more setbacks! If I make a mistake, I’m getting right back on. If I don’t work out one day, fine, but I go right back. No more doing bad for a whole weekend or a whole week. That is behind me now.
And then after 10 minutes on the elliptical I felt really nauseated-this bug or whatever it is. So I went slow at it, but I was determined to keep at it, and I’m so proud that I did. You know, it isn’t easy being this big. Being over 300 sucks. Its not easy going to the gym, hell its not easy just walking! Going to the gym can be challenging. You feel like a spectacle. Sometimes I felt like I got enough cardio just walking up to the stairs to the cardio room lol. Its hard to see the skinny girls half-naked giggling with “Juicy” written on their ass! But you know what? Who do I have to blame for it? Yes, I haven’t had an easy life. My family has definitely gone through huge obstacles! But yet, I feel like I can’t complain. When I see people at work eating their hamburgers every day and start to feel jealous, I think to myself “Girl, you’ve had your share of fries and hamburgers.” I get a weekly cheat, I’m not deprived. And also, when I complain that its hard to exercise, hard to move, etc. Well like my Grandma used to say “YOU ate it!” So I can’t complain! No one to blame but myself! If I hadn’t of let it get so bad, I wouldn’t have to go through this.
But its not about blame! Its about learning from your mistakes! Its okay. I’m not mad at myself. I don’t hate myself or anything. I forgive me. I’m proud of who I am and I’ve been through a lot.
Tonight I was reminded of my strength. The Biggest Loser was on. Now this was my favorite show ever. My sister and I tried to be on that show. In fact, we turned in a video audition and everything. We were picked by some recruiters as a favorite and made it through to what you could say are the ‘semi finals’ as to who would be going to the final selection as to who would be on the show. It was a very emotional experience for us. I was so heartbroken when we weren’t chosen. And to be honest, I haven’t been able to watch a full episode of the Biggest Loser this season because of that experience.
But at the gym I watched it and I had to stop my tears from just flowing, seeing these people take control of their lives. Yeah, you could say they have all this help, and they do, BUT that doesn’t mean its easy. ITS SO HARD. I just felt so proud of them for making such a change. And it made me think how powerful a person I am. What strength I have inside me. And I know I can do it. I have all the support in the world. I have the tools. So its wonderful. I know I can do this. Its my life. I’m going to take control and start living it.
Its going to be hard not to weigh myself. But I need to not worry about that. The point is that you eat right and exercise so that you can lead a good life and take care of your body so that you can feel good. You follow that and the weight will come.
I can do it!!!! I need to think of my future babies and how I want to ride a bike with them and take them to Disneyland!!!
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 4 eggs (2 whole, 2 egg whites)
Snack: orange, protein snack
L: tuna salad
Snack: orange, soy nuts (They are actually quite good-smoky bbq flavor)
D: chicken, mixed veggies
Snack: 100 cal fudgecicle
WORKOUT:
45 Min elliptical J
RECAP:
This morning had a little nausea, wondered if it was because I didn’t have my protein shake. It seems like every time I don’t have it, I don’t feel so well. Very strange. But perhaps I still have the bug a little.
In the afternoon before lunch started feeling sick again. Rah, I wish this bug would just go away. Not entirely convinced either way if it’s the pill or a bug. I would think if it were the pills I would’ve noticed sooner.
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! So I just got back from the gym. And I have to say I’m really proud of myself. Yeah, big deal you went to the gym. I’ve gone to the gym hundreds of times. But today I didn’t go because I thought I should or because I didn’t want to disappoint Adam, but because I WANTED to.
I walk in and see Heather training Adam. I’m just so proud of him. I can’t be jealous. I simply can’t. He has applied himself and has never given up. I was just so proud of him! He has so earned it and deserves this. He has lost 60 pounds! He is under 200 pounds and so close to his ideal weight. That is just amazing. I admit in the past I’ve thought its just easier for him and he had less to lose. Excuse after excuse. I compared myself and would get discouraged. I feel like all of that is gone and I’m just happy for him and I’m willing to be as dedicated as him and no more making excuses. No more setbacks! If I make a mistake, I’m getting right back on. If I don’t work out one day, fine, but I go right back. No more doing bad for a whole weekend or a whole week. That is behind me now.
And then after 10 minutes on the elliptical I felt really nauseated-this bug or whatever it is. So I went slow at it, but I was determined to keep at it, and I’m so proud that I did. You know, it isn’t easy being this big. Being over 300 sucks. Its not easy going to the gym, hell its not easy just walking! Going to the gym can be challenging. You feel like a spectacle. Sometimes I felt like I got enough cardio just walking up to the stairs to the cardio room lol. Its hard to see the skinny girls half-naked giggling with “Juicy” written on their ass! But you know what? Who do I have to blame for it? Yes, I haven’t had an easy life. My family has definitely gone through huge obstacles! But yet, I feel like I can’t complain. When I see people at work eating their hamburgers every day and start to feel jealous, I think to myself “Girl, you’ve had your share of fries and hamburgers.” I get a weekly cheat, I’m not deprived. And also, when I complain that its hard to exercise, hard to move, etc. Well like my Grandma used to say “YOU ate it!” So I can’t complain! No one to blame but myself! If I hadn’t of let it get so bad, I wouldn’t have to go through this.
But its not about blame! Its about learning from your mistakes! Its okay. I’m not mad at myself. I don’t hate myself or anything. I forgive me. I’m proud of who I am and I’ve been through a lot.
Tonight I was reminded of my strength. The Biggest Loser was on. Now this was my favorite show ever. My sister and I tried to be on that show. In fact, we turned in a video audition and everything. We were picked by some recruiters as a favorite and made it through to what you could say are the ‘semi finals’ as to who would be going to the final selection as to who would be on the show. It was a very emotional experience for us. I was so heartbroken when we weren’t chosen. And to be honest, I haven’t been able to watch a full episode of the Biggest Loser this season because of that experience.
But at the gym I watched it and I had to stop my tears from just flowing, seeing these people take control of their lives. Yeah, you could say they have all this help, and they do, BUT that doesn’t mean its easy. ITS SO HARD. I just felt so proud of them for making such a change. And it made me think how powerful a person I am. What strength I have inside me. And I know I can do it. I have all the support in the world. I have the tools. So its wonderful. I know I can do this. Its my life. I’m going to take control and start living it.
Its going to be hard not to weigh myself. But I need to not worry about that. The point is that you eat right and exercise so that you can lead a good life and take care of your body so that you can feel good. You follow that and the weight will come.
Monday, November 10, 2008
MORNING MOTIVATION:
PROTEIN!!!! Well I’m focusing more on the rules this week. There are things I’ve done great such as drinking tons of water! (Seriously, feels like I drink a lake every day and subsequently frequent the bathroom on a regular basis). My snacking has calmed down. I think if I exercise this week, always take my pills at the right time, and up the protein I will find success!
FOOD:
B: yogurt, banana, protein shake
Snack: banana
L: tuna salad
Snack: apple, soy nuts (They are actually quite good-smoky bbq flavor)
D: chicken, brown rice, carrots, cupcake
RECAP:
I did really good today. The cupcake was actually Weight Watchers so I’m not worried about that. Water consumption was great-no Diet Coke today and I upped the protein quite a bit. I think this will really work for me this week. Also, Adam is insisting I not weigh myself as he thinks he discourages me so I actually am going to make myself wait until Monday when I get weighed in and get my weekly booty shot. It’s going to be really hard to wait! I usually like to get an idea of where I’m doing in the middle of the week and then a couple of days before I weigh in. I can get over it I guess lol.
I’m so proud of Adam. He is amazing. Such a good example to me. He is so strict. Every once in a while, like our weekly cheat he will indulge a little, but during the week he is just so great. And working out, he is so gung ho about it. I mean the days he has his trainer obviously he must go, but the other days its just something he does! Instead of me complaining lately. I’m going through a weird phase.
Truthfully exercise is usually not hard for me really. Lately though I’ve just been a slacker. I’ve been wanting to play on the computer (like myspace, Wow, or facebook lol) instead of working out, so he kinda has to drag my big booty there. Poor guy. J I just love him so much. Thankfully I’m good to my sweetie.
I think sleep needs to be a better priority. Last night we were going to the gym, but as a first Adam didn’t want to go, which never happens. But it doesn’t matter, he still goes 5 times a week, so it just means we will go a different day. We had been at his family’s family night. Which btw was a blast. His mom is wonderful. She loves making dinner for us all, and we switch turns to be in charge of the game etc. So last night we played ‘In the Manner of the Adverb’. I can’t even remember where I got this game as it was so many years ago. It’s a group game and one person goes out and the group picks an adverb, like romantically, or something like that. Then the person comes back in and has everyone do something in the manner of the adverb. Now I’ve played this game with many different groups of people, but I have never had so much fun as with Adam’s family. OMG they are hilarious. Drama queens all of them. Our favorite is always watching Adam. He may be shy, but for this game he is just hilarious and really hams it up. Joey (his brother) was killing me last night. One thing he did was so disgustingly funny. So the word was disgustingly actually and he was asked to dance. So he gets up and does this dance, but when he turns around, he was totally showing plumber crack. OMG we were just all in tears it was so gross. I just love Adam’s family. They are so fun. I fit right in with them. I am a lucky gal!
But anyway, we get home about 9:30ish and we decide we can still play wow. And seriously what feels like 5 minutes later and its 12:30. Yikes! So yeah, not getting the sleep I need and I need to make that a better priority.
My stomach has felt better today for the most part, at night I did feel a little nauseated for a bit.
PROTEIN!!!! Well I’m focusing more on the rules this week. There are things I’ve done great such as drinking tons of water! (Seriously, feels like I drink a lake every day and subsequently frequent the bathroom on a regular basis). My snacking has calmed down. I think if I exercise this week, always take my pills at the right time, and up the protein I will find success!
FOOD:
B: yogurt, banana, protein shake
Snack: banana
L: tuna salad
Snack: apple, soy nuts (They are actually quite good-smoky bbq flavor)
D: chicken, brown rice, carrots, cupcake
RECAP:
I did really good today. The cupcake was actually Weight Watchers so I’m not worried about that. Water consumption was great-no Diet Coke today and I upped the protein quite a bit. I think this will really work for me this week. Also, Adam is insisting I not weigh myself as he thinks he discourages me so I actually am going to make myself wait until Monday when I get weighed in and get my weekly booty shot. It’s going to be really hard to wait! I usually like to get an idea of where I’m doing in the middle of the week and then a couple of days before I weigh in. I can get over it I guess lol.
I’m so proud of Adam. He is amazing. Such a good example to me. He is so strict. Every once in a while, like our weekly cheat he will indulge a little, but during the week he is just so great. And working out, he is so gung ho about it. I mean the days he has his trainer obviously he must go, but the other days its just something he does! Instead of me complaining lately. I’m going through a weird phase.
Truthfully exercise is usually not hard for me really. Lately though I’ve just been a slacker. I’ve been wanting to play on the computer (like myspace, Wow, or facebook lol) instead of working out, so he kinda has to drag my big booty there. Poor guy. J I just love him so much. Thankfully I’m good to my sweetie.
I think sleep needs to be a better priority. Last night we were going to the gym, but as a first Adam didn’t want to go, which never happens. But it doesn’t matter, he still goes 5 times a week, so it just means we will go a different day. We had been at his family’s family night. Which btw was a blast. His mom is wonderful. She loves making dinner for us all, and we switch turns to be in charge of the game etc. So last night we played ‘In the Manner of the Adverb’. I can’t even remember where I got this game as it was so many years ago. It’s a group game and one person goes out and the group picks an adverb, like romantically, or something like that. Then the person comes back in and has everyone do something in the manner of the adverb. Now I’ve played this game with many different groups of people, but I have never had so much fun as with Adam’s family. OMG they are hilarious. Drama queens all of them. Our favorite is always watching Adam. He may be shy, but for this game he is just hilarious and really hams it up. Joey (his brother) was killing me last night. One thing he did was so disgustingly funny. So the word was disgustingly actually and he was asked to dance. So he gets up and does this dance, but when he turns around, he was totally showing plumber crack. OMG we were just all in tears it was so gross. I just love Adam’s family. They are so fun. I fit right in with them. I am a lucky gal!
But anyway, we get home about 9:30ish and we decide we can still play wow. And seriously what feels like 5 minutes later and its 12:30. Yikes! So yeah, not getting the sleep I need and I need to make that a better priority.
My stomach has felt better today for the most part, at night I did feel a little nauseated for a bit.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Week 3 Results
Original Weight: 368
Week one: 349
Week two: 351
Week three: 353.5
YIKES!!!!! What is happening??
Well its not time to panic or get depressed. After all I have still lost quite a bit of weight on this medication. So its time for reflection. I need to figure out what needs improvement. Here are a few ideas:
1. Need to hit the gym MORE!
2. Need to be better about the 3/1 ration of meat to everything else. I think I haven't quite eaten protein.
3. Need to be diligent about eating snacks and taking pills all on time.
Week one: 349
Week two: 351
Week three: 353.5
YIKES!!!!! What is happening??
Well its not time to panic or get depressed. After all I have still lost quite a bit of weight on this medication. So its time for reflection. I need to figure out what needs improvement. Here are a few ideas:
1. Need to hit the gym MORE!
2. Need to be better about the 3/1 ration of meat to everything else. I think I haven't quite eaten protein.
3. Need to be diligent about eating snacks and taking pills all on time.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Why is the Rum gone? Halloween madness
Okay so I know this blog is about my phentrimine experience (which by the way, I keep thinking I'm spelling that word wrong and different every time lol) but I do have a life (well kinda) outside of the diet. Actually thats kind of a lie, because my boyfriend got me addicted to WoW (yes I'm one of THOSE nerds now)....so no, I have no life now! Do you not know what WoW is? View the following link that SouthPark did on it and you will get an idea:
It is really fun but way addicting that game. But anyway I wanted to talk about Halloween!!!! Since it is my favorite holiday in the world!!!! And I just found out that my best friend in high school plays so I'm stoked about that! (Yeah, I'm not the ONLY nerd lol)
Halloween:1. WORK: We were able to decorate our desks this year and had a contest. I came in second place sadly! I actually had a LOT of fun decorating. I had kind of a skull theme going on everywhere in Paul's and my office. I made these spiders and I made shrunken heads out of apples. So cool! I'll have to post a pic. Anyway it was a riot. But I was pretty mad because they were doing this HUGE halloween thing but on THURSDAY even though Halloween was on Friday. So lame! Thursday is my day off so I was pretty bummed to miss all the kiddies etc.
2. FAMILY PARTY: Ok so we went to my family party. Adam always has such a hard time with it. And he adores my family and they love him. But he is more the type that likes to go for an hour and then be done, and my family parties are always hours long. Its just what we do because we don't meet often. So he is tortured. I think its good for him though.
But this year's halloween party was so fun. Deb and I were in charge this time. We did our basic chilli and some desserts. Poor Hailey, my niece, broke her collarbone right before the party, they were still able to come but poor thing couldn't wear her princess outfit.
Of course we had the place all decorated and had the punch bowl with hand ice so it looks like a hand in blood. It was pretty fun. Then Deb and I had this whole carnival planned. We started with a mad lib that I had written that just had us in tears (I'll have to dig it out and post it as its really pretty cute, even though only my family would get why its so funny) Then we started with the games. We had some for everyone: bingo, a guess how many game, costume contest. Kids games like pin the tail on the witch etc and adult games-Halloween word game, tray guessing game, and halloween trivia game. And of course we had our Q-tip game (you try to throw q-tips in a cup which is harder than it sounds). The prizes went over really well. Man I love halloween!
3-Adam's family Halloween party-Ok this is the killer. So funny. So Adam hasn't drunk in quite a while and I was teasing that we haven't even drunk together really. Neither of us are much of a drinker. I had a margarita with his parents once, but thats it. So we were offered some really good wine and each had a glass. His family was so excited that he came to the party (It was Aunt Cathi-his aunt who set us up that had the party at her house and did a WON
DERFUL job). I'm so lucky! I adore all of his family. They tease Adam that if he ever breaks up with me that they will keep me and ditch him. They love how they see Adam more now that I'm in the picture. They always do a family night on Mondays, but other parties he wouldn't always go to, and if he did he would bring a laptop. So anyway all the men were drinking in the back and Adam and I were dressed up. He was a pirate and I was his wench (see pic). So anyway they decided that since he was dressed as a pirate he may as well drink. So I became the desiganted driver and just had the wine and a couple sips of what he had.
And so the drama began. A neighboor had brought this blood red vodka. So the problem was that Adam thought it was a mixed drink. IT WASN'T! So he had 2 full drinks which was the same as about 5-6 shots, not to mention the rum and coke he had (on top of the wine he started off with)......I dont have much experience but apparently not only did he have too much, but you aren't supposed to MIX different types of drinks or you will get sick as well. EEEK.
Also, he has lost 60 pounds since the last time he drank so he is kind of a lightweight now anyway.....so we head off to his Grandma's. It hadn't really hit him yet. He just seemed kinda giddy. Sure enough, as soon as we get inside at his grandma's it hits him! Let's just say we were in and out of there real quick! So here I am with this drunken pirate of a boyfriend with his MOM there too and Im thinking "Oh man, they aren't gonna let us get married now cuz I got him drunk!"
On the way home he called nearly all of his friends, apparently he is really into drunken calling. I was laughing so hard I could hardly drive myself. He kept telling everyone how much he loved them. My favorite is when he told his brother Nicky "We just went to Grandma's house and I don't even remember going there". Oh man it was so funny.
But then, it became a lesson of why its bad to drink so much. Personally I think moderation in all things and that a social drink here or there is not harmful. But yikes, when you drink too much you can realy get sick and some get alcohol poisening so its kind of no laughing matter (although I admit I mostly laughed that night).....so I practically have to carry him inside and before I could run and get a bucket ...well you can guess what happened. Yeah in my favorite pair of shoes and then all over the toilet and walls. ICK. He felt so so bad. He kept saying he would clean it etc etc. Hello! He couldn't even stand! And I felt pretty responsible too so I couldn't complain as I should've done a better job preventing it.
But anyway part of it was kinda sweet (well you know not the cleaning up ickiness part). He kept asking me if we had kids and now I realize I really missed an opportunity to mess with him. He kept telling me how much he loves me and how he hopes I marry him.............you know drunk people tell no lies so that made me smile.
Anyway point is, don't drink too much!!!!
Week 2, Day 4 - Praying to the Porcelain God
Week 2, Day 4
Thursday, November 6
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, cottage cheese
Snack: cereal bowl
L: nothing
Snack: protein bar
D: oatmeal
EXERCISE:
None Today. I was so sick!
EMOTIONS:
Ugh, I don’t think I ate enough this morning. Just wasn’t that hungry and was busy on my flex day cleaning as I normally do. About an hour after breakfast I got hungry and my tummy was feeling weird again like it has been for the last couple of days. Well that cereal bar did not sit well. I immediately lost everything I’d eaten. Felt so very sick all day and a blazing headache. I really don’t think it can be the pills though, otherwise I would have felt this the first week I’m assuming. So I’m still optimistic.
Thursday, November 6
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, cottage cheese
Snack: cereal bowl
L: nothing
Snack: protein bar
D: oatmeal
EXERCISE:
None Today. I was so sick!
EMOTIONS:
Ugh, I don’t think I ate enough this morning. Just wasn’t that hungry and was busy on my flex day cleaning as I normally do. About an hour after breakfast I got hungry and my tummy was feeling weird again like it has been for the last couple of days. Well that cereal bar did not sit well. I immediately lost everything I’d eaten. Felt so very sick all day and a blazing headache. I really don’t think it can be the pills though, otherwise I would have felt this the first week I’m assuming. So I’m still optimistic.
Week 2, Day 3 - Exercising is Possible!!!
Week 2, Day 3
Wednesday, November 5
FOOD:
B: 4 eggs (2 whole), protein shake
Snack: banana
L: chilli
Snack: yogurt, string cheese
D: chicken, veggies
EXERCISE:
45 Minutes elliptical machine
EMOTIONS:
My tummy is kind of bugging me today but I’m doing a lot better at taking the pills etc.
Wednesday, November 5
FOOD:
B: 4 eggs (2 whole), protein shake
Snack: banana
L: chilli
Snack: yogurt, string cheese
D: chicken, veggies
EXERCISE:
45 Minutes elliptical machine
EMOTIONS:
My tummy is kind of bugging me today but I’m doing a lot better at taking the pills etc.
Week 2, Day 2 - Finding my Mojo
Week 2, Day 2
Tuesday, November 4
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 2 eggs, 2 whites
Snack: apple
L: chicken, rice, tomatoes, cheese
Snack: yogurt, string cheese
D: Chilli
Snack: Banana
EXERCISE:
30 minutes Cardio-Elliptical
Man this is kicking my butt! Why do I ever stop exercising. SO hard to get back into the swing of things. I was pooped after 30 minutes. It really is best to do 45 because you burn fat for longer even after the workout is over so its very worth it. But I think because I was cramping and was wanting to go home and play WoW, I was lucky to get in 30 minutes! Adam left before me to see his trainer, and I wondered if in the back of his mind if he wondered if I would actually show up, slacker that I am as of late. So weird because I really am a hard worker when I set my mind to it. It was pretty nice though because his trainer commented that she can tell I have lost wait so that was kind of nice to hear.
AND I WENT!!!! Give yourself credit for the things you are doing. We always have goals and we can always do better, but don’t discourage yourself and set yourself up for failure. Give you credit where credit is desserved.
EMOTIONS:
I am still really struggling. I think once I have the medicine in my system regularly for a few days (with no skipping!!!), it will be much easier. I have still had cravings, but I really think its because of my lack of inconsistency.
But I need to remain optimistic. So what I gained back two pounds. I’ve lost 17 in such a short time. If I get all sad it will only get me discouraged and more likely to cheat again. Too often I have that ‘all or nothing’ attitude. So sometimes I think well I cheated, may as well keep cheating. Its like the fat girl inside me is so wickedly clever and evil. She can justify anything. Had a bad day? Oh is your back hurting Holly? Oh are you tired? Did you get in an argument with someone? Oh isn’t work so stressful!!! Here, have some chocolate, you will feel better! Oh come on, one piece isn’t going to hurt!
And then once you’ve had some, well 2 more pieces can’t really hurt. I’m telling you, this fat girl is evil. And she lies! LOL I’m kind of joking, but there is some truth to it. A part of you wants you to fail. Isn’t that weird? But its true. Why? Well you’ve been fat for a long time (well at least I have lol)….its all you know and remember. Its comfortable. Part of you fears change. For instance, being fat is your favorite excuse. I don’t have more money or a better job etc because I’m fat. You use that for everything. So what if you don’t have that excuse anymore, what will you do?
So you have to really think it through and focus. You have to really want it. You have to make yourself follow it. Yes, this medicine definitely helps, but its still a challenge. Its not quite the miracle I thought it was at first. But I can use all the help I can get. But the point is, you still have to try.
For me, I’m not consistant for the long haul. I want it to come off fast and I want it now, but I have a hard time putting in the effort. I get sad, mad, etc and I want to do what I’ve always done, emotional eater that I am, and eat the troubles away. THIS WON’T WORK ANYMORE. Its not acceptable. And I can teach myself this. Its not easy, but I will do it.
How do you do it? Well I’m going to try this? Every time I crave something I’m going to ask myself a few questions and think about certain things:
1. Is this just a small snack that I really do need a taste of? If I just want a bite and then I’m good, then fine, go for it. I would rather have a little than deprive myself and then one day eat a whole cake. Moderation in all things seems to work for me.
2. Is this something that I will keep eating? Am I emotional or stressed or something?
3. Is this really what I want? Is it going to help me make my dreams come true?
4. Picture the wonderful things I look forward to when I’m healthier such as: fitting easily into airplane seats, going on roller coasters again, scuba diving, skiing, all kinds of sports!
5. YOU CAN DO IT. The power is in YOU.
6. You’ve been good before. Just keep doing it again.
Tuesday, November 4
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, 2 eggs, 2 whites
Snack: apple
L: chicken, rice, tomatoes, cheese
Snack: yogurt, string cheese
D: Chilli
Snack: Banana
EXERCISE:
30 minutes Cardio-Elliptical
Man this is kicking my butt! Why do I ever stop exercising. SO hard to get back into the swing of things. I was pooped after 30 minutes. It really is best to do 45 because you burn fat for longer even after the workout is over so its very worth it. But I think because I was cramping and was wanting to go home and play WoW, I was lucky to get in 30 minutes! Adam left before me to see his trainer, and I wondered if in the back of his mind if he wondered if I would actually show up, slacker that I am as of late. So weird because I really am a hard worker when I set my mind to it. It was pretty nice though because his trainer commented that she can tell I have lost wait so that was kind of nice to hear.
AND I WENT!!!! Give yourself credit for the things you are doing. We always have goals and we can always do better, but don’t discourage yourself and set yourself up for failure. Give you credit where credit is desserved.
EMOTIONS:
I am still really struggling. I think once I have the medicine in my system regularly for a few days (with no skipping!!!), it will be much easier. I have still had cravings, but I really think its because of my lack of inconsistency.
But I need to remain optimistic. So what I gained back two pounds. I’ve lost 17 in such a short time. If I get all sad it will only get me discouraged and more likely to cheat again. Too often I have that ‘all or nothing’ attitude. So sometimes I think well I cheated, may as well keep cheating. Its like the fat girl inside me is so wickedly clever and evil. She can justify anything. Had a bad day? Oh is your back hurting Holly? Oh are you tired? Did you get in an argument with someone? Oh isn’t work so stressful!!! Here, have some chocolate, you will feel better! Oh come on, one piece isn’t going to hurt!
And then once you’ve had some, well 2 more pieces can’t really hurt. I’m telling you, this fat girl is evil. And she lies! LOL I’m kind of joking, but there is some truth to it. A part of you wants you to fail. Isn’t that weird? But its true. Why? Well you’ve been fat for a long time (well at least I have lol)….its all you know and remember. Its comfortable. Part of you fears change. For instance, being fat is your favorite excuse. I don’t have more money or a better job etc because I’m fat. You use that for everything. So what if you don’t have that excuse anymore, what will you do?
So you have to really think it through and focus. You have to really want it. You have to make yourself follow it. Yes, this medicine definitely helps, but its still a challenge. Its not quite the miracle I thought it was at first. But I can use all the help I can get. But the point is, you still have to try.
For me, I’m not consistant for the long haul. I want it to come off fast and I want it now, but I have a hard time putting in the effort. I get sad, mad, etc and I want to do what I’ve always done, emotional eater that I am, and eat the troubles away. THIS WON’T WORK ANYMORE. Its not acceptable. And I can teach myself this. Its not easy, but I will do it.
How do you do it? Well I’m going to try this? Every time I crave something I’m going to ask myself a few questions and think about certain things:
1. Is this just a small snack that I really do need a taste of? If I just want a bite and then I’m good, then fine, go for it. I would rather have a little than deprive myself and then one day eat a whole cake. Moderation in all things seems to work for me.
2. Is this something that I will keep eating? Am I emotional or stressed or something?
3. Is this really what I want? Is it going to help me make my dreams come true?
4. Picture the wonderful things I look forward to when I’m healthier such as: fitting easily into airplane seats, going on roller coasters again, scuba diving, skiing, all kinds of sports!
5. YOU CAN DO IT. The power is in YOU.
6. You’ve been good before. Just keep doing it again.
Week 2, Day 1 - Paying the Piper
Week 2, Day 1
Monday, November 3
LAST WEEK’S RESULTS: Well I gained 2 pounds. I was thinking it was going to be more like 5 so I’m actually rather pleased. Just need to keep taking my pills and following the diet. Its actually not that hard!
FOOD:
B: oatmeal, protein bar
Snack: apple
L: chilli
Snack: yogurt, string cheese
D: chicken, potato, carrots
EXERCISE:
None Today
EMOTIONS:
I just need to refocus!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Day 9-13
Sunday November 2nd, 2008
Ok so someone has been a slacker with blogging!
Its been a rough road this past week. I forgot to take my pills a couple of more times and then it was Halloween and my period. Just a BAD combination overall lol. We had a little too much fun at our parties. So tomorrow its time to pay the piper. I have this really bad feeling that I gained like 5 pounds or something. It would really suck! But hey its my fault. I have to remember to eat and remember to take my pills.
I’m not going to let anything get in my way! Sometimes you fall, but you get right back up!
Ok so someone has been a slacker with blogging!
Its been a rough road this past week. I forgot to take my pills a couple of more times and then it was Halloween and my period. Just a BAD combination overall lol. We had a little too much fun at our parties. So tomorrow its time to pay the piper. I have this really bad feeling that I gained like 5 pounds or something. It would really suck! But hey its my fault. I have to remember to eat and remember to take my pills.
I’m not going to let anything get in my way! Sometimes you fall, but you get right back up!
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