Does this wedding dress make my butt look big?

So I’ve been slowly getting into more wedding stuff. Been a little bit relaxing, or so I thought. I did plan on meeting with Jen last Saturday to kind of make some headway with centerpieces & invitations. Well that ended up being the unplanned wedding preparation day! So I was about to exercise and I got a call from Adam’s sister Kim who said there was a dress on KSL I should look at. At first I thought she was crazy. Who buys a wedding dress from KSL???? Well lots of people apparently. I completely and utterly fell in love with it and it is now mine and was only $125.
This is such a miracle and I have since thanked God a million times over (and Kimmy). Its just so funny because I’ve been sort of having a hard time doing this without my mother. It just makes me miss her so much, probably even more so in May as its her birthday month, Mother’s day and memorial day and my birthday all in one! Well and trying on wedding dresses didn’t excite me much anyway for weight reasons so I was going to postpone it as much as I possibly could and was trying not to be sad about it. But a while back when I was sad about it, I was looking at my mom’s painting I sometimes talk to (yes I am THAT crazy), and I just felt like everything would be okay and it would be painless and easy. I swear my mother is our guardian angel. She knows what a stress case I can be, and just makes things happen for me sometimes. Kimmy and I tease that we are now sisters anyway, so I swear my mother inspired her to look at that.
The dress is perfect. Its 2 sizes too small, but if I keep losing more (which is the plan), Val (Adam’s mom) can take it in so easily so I can look at it as a goal. Its all lacy and kind of Victorian which is my theme. Not too much lace, but just enough. The sleeves flair out and are sheer. There is beadwork on it and a huge long train. I’m so happy about it, I was on cloud 9 all day.
That same day Jen and I really made some headway about invitations and such as well so I’m so appreciative of her. Then that night we actually bought 2 out of 3 of the flower dresses that match the bridal dress so much with little lacy detail and the adorable pale pink with huge fluffly skirts. Oh man they are just perfectly frilly! I’m just so excited! Its all really happening. I thank God and my mom (as I’m sure she had something to do with it) that I have Val and Kim. My family is so wonderful, but at this time things are complicated. Deb has all her kids, Jen is already doing so much, Laurie is getting a divorce, and it isn’t really my dad’s thing so I’m so grateful. I have no idea how blessed I am I know to have such great future in-laws seriously. Like we want to have a house near them some day and who wants that. So officially I am the luckiest girl in the world and I should just remember that!
Oh and my doctor thinks I have some metabolic thing so I’m waiting for test results. If I do, medications may help me lose a little faster. Wouldn’t that be nice! But if not I just have to be patient. I lose so horribly slow and I can’t get sad about it. I just have to work my tail at it and be ok with it. The results will come eventually. I guess God had to teach me patience somehow!