Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Got Plans?
But it is work. Last night I seriously did a million things, I exercised, did grocery shopping at 2 places, exercised, played soccer for an hour, called everyone about bonko (give address etc), ran things over to Jens (who is graciously hosting), and dropped Adam’s car over to Heather’s (Adam’s cousin whose hubby is going to fix the car she accidentally backed into). By the time we got home it was 10:30 PM and I still wasn’t quite done. I made the treats while I watched the finale of American Idol. It’s a nice feeling to get a lot of things done. But how do you moms do it??? I don’t even have kids yet and I’m exhausted.
Tonight I’m running to Jen’s to clean for a couple of hours, need to exercise, pick up Adam, and get all our camping stuff ready for this weekend. Thursday will be a blast but Bonko is an all nighter. Then Friday we will be shopping and planning for our campout this weekend. Oh thank heaven it’s a long weekend!
I actually only work 2 days next week as his parents are taking us to Wendover on my birthday.
Oh my seriously so much fun stuff coming up. The weekend after that is my family’s big belated Memorial Day Bash at Milcreek. So much fun. We cook all the meals and hike and play games. It seriously is a blast.
We are trying to save for a house as well and improve my credit by getting me out of debt. Oh why does everything cost so much! One day we will hopefully have it all together.
Does this wedding dress make my butt look big?
This is such a miracle and I have since thanked God a million times over (and Kimmy). Its just so funny because I’ve been sort of having a hard time doing this without my mother. It just makes me miss her so much, probably even more so in May as its her birthday month, Mother’s day and memorial day and my birthday all in one! Well and trying on wedding dresses didn’t excite me much anyway for weight reasons so I was going to postpone it as much as I possibly could and was trying not to be sad about it. But a while back when I was sad about it, I was looking at my mom’s painting I sometimes talk to (yes I am THAT crazy), and I just felt like everything would be okay and it would be painless and easy. I swear my mother is our guardian angel. She knows what a stress case I can be, and just makes things happen for me sometimes. Kimmy and I tease that we are now sisters anyway, so I swear my mother inspired her to look at that.
The dress is perfect. Its 2 sizes too small, but if I keep losing more (which is the plan), Val (Adam’s mom) can take it in so easily so I can look at it as a goal. Its all lacy and kind of Victorian which is my theme. Not too much lace, but just enough. The sleeves flair out and are sheer. There is beadwork on it and a huge long train. I’m so happy about it, I was on cloud 9 all day.
That same day Jen and I really made some headway about invitations and such as well so I’m so appreciative of her. Then that night we actually bought 2 out of 3 of the flower dresses that match the bridal dress so much with little lacy detail and the adorable pale pink with huge fluffly skirts. Oh man they are just perfectly frilly! I’m just so excited! Its all really happening. I thank God and my mom (as I’m sure she had something to do with it) that I have Val and Kim. My family is so wonderful, but at this time things are complicated. Deb has all her kids, Jen is already doing so much, Laurie is getting a divorce, and it isn’t really my dad’s thing so I’m so grateful. I have no idea how blessed I am I know to have such great future in-laws seriously. Like we want to have a house near them some day and who wants that. So officially I am the luckiest girl in the world and I should just remember that!
Oh and my doctor thinks I have some metabolic thing so I’m waiting for test results. If I do, medications may help me lose a little faster. Wouldn’t that be nice! But if not I just have to be patient. I lose so horribly slow and I can’t get sad about it. I just have to work my tail at it and be ok with it. The results will come eventually. I guess God had to teach me patience somehow!
Monday, April 6, 2009
One Big Screw-up
I've really been struggling with this cleanse. I just never really feel like I get full at all. Its SO annoying. It's no excuse though. Anyway today I had seriously everything I've been craving. I was supposed to be doing the only veggies and fruit thing. Instead I went to BK for breakfast. Then I had a chicken salad sandwhich, a piece of carrot cake with cream cheese frosting, and Hersheys eggs. Sheesh!
So mad and dissapointed with myself. But honestly I think its just that this cleanse is like a starvation diet, so I'm following the day 10 which actually has meat and veggies and some carbs. It sounds like heaven compared to what I'm having. So I will make this work.
Friday, April 3, 2009
The Cleanse!!!!
Okay day one of the cleanse. I really am lucky, it’s not as bad as The Master cleanse I tried once. On that one you keep drinking this nasty concoction of lemon, syrup, and cayenne pepper. My whole team at work tried it a few years ago. We all lasted about 3 days. Miserable stuff.
So 3 days of just veggies and fruits, I really shouldn’t complain. But you know its one of greater qualities. I can find a way to complain about anything. LOL. I just don’t ever really feel that full on veggies and fruits. So we’ll see how it goes. Of course I’m gonna do it, even if it kills me. I just really really have to do it. I really want to see a 33x number next week. How cool would that be! Correction, how cool WILL that be?
So I already had breakfast of fruit. You have to eat as much veggies as you do fruit, so my next snack will be veggies. And of course you can’t have ranch or anything yummy like that lol. I can have a red potato for lunch. Of course not any butter or anything, but still it will be rather filling.
……….Well nows its 5:30. And if you don’t already know, you will soon find that I am the biggest whiner in the universe. POOR ADAM. That is all I can say. He has gotten more than an earful.
Can I just say that veggies and fruits are not very filling! I miss the egg whites and the chicken I used to eat SO bad its not even funny. I really don’t know how I’m going to do 2 more days of this. Craziness. It has just really sucked big time. Ugh, I have to stop blogging about it. I can’t think about it.
Monday:
As much as I wanted to punch Heather (hee hee not really) for coming up with this horrible diet, so I lost 4 ½ pounds since yesterday. Sunday I discovered from cheat Saturday I’d gained back 1 ½ pounds (totally to be expected). So yeah I’m 340 right now. That insane. I was hoping to be 337 by Saturday. I think that is definitely going to happen easy. Right now I’m shooting for 335. I could totally do better, but after 3 days you gradually add stuff, so its not going to be losing 4 pounds a day.
Its so funny last night I was complaining and telling Adam I didn’t think I could do day 2 and 3 and might skip to day 4 where you get to add 2 carbs. But then I weighed myself and I decided hell no am I going to skip those days. I can do this!!!!
The diet still concerns me a little. Its so low calorie-I mean you can only eat so many fruits & veggies. But to be honest, underneath all this fat I have a ton of muscle too. So I actually need to lose some muscle too in the grand scheme of things. So its ok really if I lose some of that. I think this “cleanse” is more so you have totally pure foods going into your system and helping cleaning you out and bursting up your metabolism. Well whatever it does, me likey J
Today honestly is a little easier than yesterday. Perhaps yesterday was so incredibly hard because I’d had such a high caloric day the previous day. I just seriously never felt even close to sated. Fruits & veggies are wonderful, but they don’t fill me up in and of themselves. I just really missed like crazy those carbs and protein that really stay with you. It was miserable yesterday. My stomach all day long had that icky feeling in it too which was really hard at the gym I have to say. I kept eating as many as I could stomach as I don’t want to starve myself.
Today is easier for some reason. Maybe I’m more used to it or whatever. Perhaps my tummy has shrunk a little. I don’t know. But I’m GRATEFUL. And when coworkers start bringing back their yummy fast food, I will have to just think. 4 ½ POUNDS SO FAR!!!! DON’T GIVE UP.
The cool thing about this diet is every few days it increases slightly. Eventually on day 10 you are on a very reasonable diet that you can follow thereafter. She mentioned that some people will do that for a week and then start over. Call me crazy but I just may do that.
I’m finding I’m stronger than I think. Mind over matter. Or mind over tummy to be more specific.
Tuesday:
Well I weighed again this morning and I lost 2 more pounds. Its incredible seriously. I’m sure as the diet has me add a little more the weight loss won’t be as dramatic each day. As such, I’m going to hold off weighing in again until Saturday and just keep following the diet and exercising my buttox off and I know I will see great results.
Something so incredible today, I fit into a pair of jeans that I haven’t fit into for YEARS!!! Wowsers. Its seriously cool. They are slightly tight, but I just can’t wait until they fit absolutely perfect! Wahoo. Celebration.
It really makes me think of other times I’ve been doing well and then just stop, so I’m really trying to watch that. I need to make sure I keep up the intensity and don’t just think that I’m seeing great results, so I’m done. I’ve worked hard enough. I have to keep it up.
Also I can’t get discouraged and I need to be realistic. That first day was incredible, but I can’t be sad about thereafter. Like today seeing 2 pounds in one day. That is incredible, but if you compare to the day before you could get a little sad. So I can’t fall into those familiar pit falls.
Yeah its hard, but guess what, life IS hard. There are MUCH worse things. If you want something, you have to put in the work to get it. Nothing is for free in this life.
Another thing I’ve noticed, last night I went to the store before we went and saw a movie and I got a treat for my nephew for the movie and also for Adam’s niece. I remember walking by the drinks and then the Easter candy and I thought, gosh no one would know if I just sneak a drink and a treat. And then I just had to laugh and walk away. No one will know! That is so not what this is about. It doesn’t matter if people know or not. And actually, they DO know because they see the size of your……….well you know.
So its switching the way you think about things that is so VITAL for this to work, because just like anything its mostly MENTAL. So yeah, I’m free to have fattening foods and not follow the diet. No one is MAKING me do this. I am CHOOSING to do this. Because it is what needs to be done to get the results I want. Its as simple as that.
I have had my way unhealthy days where I ate whatever I wanted. I get weekly cheats. Its not like I’m deprived or starving. So chin up! Persevere! Healthy bod or bust! Its exciting. First milestones, I got (unofficially as I don’t count it until Saturday) BELOW the 340 range! Wowsers! I also fit into some jeans. INCREDIBLE!!!!
Whats the next milestone? Well 330 is the next one. Adam is going to buy me something when I reach that. So I’m stoked. Every 10 pounds is just a wonderful achievement that I’m really looking forward to. J
Friday:
Well I weighed in today and was pretty disappointed. But I got engaged this week!!!! We had a cheat night in the middle of the week so things happen and that’s okay. I’m just so happy and I just need to stick to it and all will be fine.
I’m doing good workout wise, but I could definitely kick it up a notch!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
NOT an April Fool's Joke!!!!
I'M SERIOUSLY SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!
Adam is the most wonderful guy in the world. Apparently he has had this planned for quite some time.
Adam popped the question earlier this evening after an elaborate, creative, and romantic "scavegar hunt" proposal. It was really sweet! We are thrilled!
I am a very happy girl! We are looking for next April to tie the knot. I haven't been so happy in a very long time!
(PS....I said YES)
Monday, March 30, 2009
Sunday & Monday-the "CLEANSE" craze
Sunday:
Okay day one of the cleanse. I really am lucky, it’s not as bad as The Master cleanse I tried once. On that one you keep drinking this nasty concoction of lemon, syrup, and cayenne pepper. My whole team at work tried it a few years ago. We all lasted about 3 days. Miserable stuff.
So 3 days of just veggies and fruits, I really shouldn’t complain. But you know its one of greater qualities. I can find a way to complain about anything. LOL. I just don’t ever really feel that full on veggies and fruits. So we’ll see how it goes. Of course I’m gonna do it, even if it kills me. I just really really have to do it. I really want to see a 33x number next week. How cool would that be! Correction, how cool WILL that be?
So I already had breakfast of fruit. You have to eat as much veggies as you do fruit, so my next snack will be veggies. And of course you can’t have ranch or anything yummy like that lol. I can have a red potato for lunch. Of course not any butter or anything, but still it will be rather filling.
……….Well nows its 5:30. And if you don’t already know, you will soon find that I am the biggest whiner in the universe. POOR ADAM. That is all I can say. He has gotten more than an earful.
Can I just say that veggies and fruits are not very filling! I miss the egg whites and the chicken I used to eat SO bad its not even funny. I really don’t know how I’m going to do 2 more days of this. Craziness. It has just really sucked big time. Ugh, I have to stop blogging about it. I can’t think about it.
Monday:
As much as I wanted to punch Heather (hee hee not really) for coming up with this horrible diet, I lost 4 ½ pounds since yesterday. Sunday I discovered from cheat Saturday I’d gained back 1 ½ pounds (totally to be expected). So yeah I’m 340 right now. That insane. I was hoping to be 337 by Saturday. I think that is definitely going to happen easy. Right now I’m shooting for 335. I could totally do better, but after 3 days you gradually add stuff, so its not going to be losing 4 pounds a day.
Its so funny last night I was complaining and telling Adam I didn’t think I could do day 2 and 3 and might skip to day 4 where you get to add 2 carbs. But then I weighed myself and I decided hell no am I going to skip those days. I can do this!!!!
The diet still concerns me a little. Its so low calorie-I mean you can only eat so many fruits & veggies. But to be honest, underneath all this fat I have a ton of muscle too. So I actually need to lose some muscle too in the grand scheme of things. So its ok really if I lose some of that. I think this “cleanse” is more so you have totally pure foods going into your system and helping cleaning you out and bursting up your metabolism. Well whatever it does, me likey J
Today honestly is a little easier than yesterday. Perhaps yesterday was so incredibly hard because I’d had such a high caloric day the previous day. I just seriously never felt even close to sated. Fruits & veggies are wonderful, but they don’t fill me up in and of themselves. I just really missed like crazy those carbs and protein that really stay with you. It was miserable yesterday. My stomach all day long had that icky feeling in it too which was really hard at the gym I have to say. I kept eating as many as I could stomach as I don’t want to starve myself.
Today is easier for some reason. Maybe I’m more used to it or whatever. Perhaps my tummy has shrunk a little. I don’t know. But I’m GRATEFUL. And when coworkers start bringing back their yummy fast food, I will have to just think. 4 ½ POUNDS SO FAR!!!! DON’T GIVE UP.
The cool thing about this diet is every few days it increases slightly. Eventually on day 10 you are on a very reasonable diet that you can follow thereafter. She mentioned that some people will do that for a week and then start over. Call me crazy but I just may do that.
I’m finding I’m stronger than I think. Mind over matter. Or mind over tummy to be more specific.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thrilling Dinosaur Adventure!!!!




All around there were dinosaurs of every kind. We saw many SMALL dinosaurs...
They were EVERYWHERE......
There were times where we felt complete TERROR...

Although we had some close run-ins and hand to run for our lives, overall it was a wonderful trip!
